Yes, yet another long hiatus comes to an end. I can’t explain why I stop posting, in fact I check the stats for the blog every single day, yet I never update or post. Perhaps it was after my last major update that I became discouraged again. You may remember, if you were around back then, that I released a new book about a year ago. I was excited, I was pumped, it was meant to be the one that shot me into stardom. I did interviews and guest spots, held a book launch party, sent copies out for review, and even gave away a couple of free ones. Sadly, none of that translated into anything worthwhile.
Nothing worthwhile! You wrote and released a book, how is that not worthwhile! You’re shouting at your screen right now, no doubt. Well, my goal wasn’t to release a book. I’d done that before to limited success. My goal went beyond just putting it out there, my goal was to have it get noticed and adored. That didn’t happen. At the launch I sold about 12 copies. Since then a few friends have bought them. I gave a few away as gifts. I have yet to sell a single copy to somebody I don’t know.
So yeah, I became discouraged from writing again. It happens, any writer knows what I’m talking about. On top of that I had a few (many) short story and poetry rejections. I had all but given up on writing. I’d seen many people whose work had been featured and published, and I read it. It’s not that it’s bad, and it’s not that mine is any better, I just didn’t see what was so special about their stuff.
Again, the eyes of a cynic see too much. And so I took a break from literature altogether. In fact, I thought that was it forever for me. No more writing, no more trying. After all, you can’t fail if you don’t try. But like cold embrace of a heroin needle, writing grabbed me once again and hooked into my skin. It’s something I need to do, and just because a few million people don’t like or want to read my stuff, doesn’t mean there aren’t at least a handful out there who do. That’s my logic.
I started a new story, actually, I powered through it writing about a quarter of it in just a day or so. But then I burned out, sadly it’s a story I’ve wanted to tell for years, and now that I’ve stopped, I’m unsure if I’ll be able to pick it up again. There are so many details I’m not sure I’ll remember. But who knows.
Anyway, that’s enough about that. You may have noticed the sites changed a bit. I’ve added a store, where you can buy some Severed Scissors merch, like t-shirts, as well as paperbacks of my books. If that interests you, take a look, make a purchase, etc… I’m still new at it, so be patient with the shipping and such. 🙂
Until next time, folks.